Prayer

If only it was that easy!


I envy those that can pray on a whim out loud. I say many prayers during the say but they are all silent prayers. Why? I really don't know. Sometimes I think it has to do with not liking to hear my own voice talking, while other times I think it is easier to pray in my head as I work to find the words. Even in my own head, I still stumble over the words. Talking out loud is not easy for me. I even changed majors at Heald just to get out of the public speaking class!


Lately, I have been asking myself why I don't voice my own prayer requests or praises on Church. Sometimes, it is the whole public speaking thing. Most of the time, I feel like my prayer requests are not near as important as those around me. I am sure some will say they are just as important, and they are to me, but there are so many that are less fortunate than I am. The person searching for a job or battling an addiction is more important than me conceiving another child, or my business taking off. Same with praises, the teen who is striving to NOT follow the path of so many in the area and has a praise that she survived another week of not giving in to peer pressure is more important than the praise that I made a sale that week or that my daughter continues to do well in school despite having a teacher that is difficult.


One more thing for me to work on, maybe baby steps.....maybe......




Quick update on the forgiveness post....


I still haven't written the letters. I have been trying to let God tell me to write them and what to put in them. Part of me feels like it will do more harm than good to write and send them. Maybe I need to write them out but not send them just yet. I am finding that writing is helping me work through quite a bit, so that might just be the right choice there. Finding forgiveness is not as easy as I made it sound in that post, it sounds easy on paper (or a screen), but in reality, it means letting go of a lot of hurt and pain.


I hope everyone has a great weekend! There is a huge triathlon near church this weekend, so I am not driving down. Might be time to step out and check a church closer to home!


Larissa


Book to read this week: Luke